I’d Almost Prefer It If You Didn’t Read This

I didn’t want to write this blog. This is the one where I tell you what I’m doing with my life.

I’ve always been a private person. To my friends, I would joke that I was “mysterious” and so forth. It was a lie that I hid behind.

I used to do a lot of things just for the sake of appearing mysterious. They were actually to hide from my insecurities.

I would avoid many social risks, even as I took others. I would only take the risks that were sure bets. Ones where there were no consequences if I failed.

I would almost never say what I really felt while in high-stress situations. I would almost never reach out to possible new friends where I wasn’t sure I was really wanted. I would go to great lengths to try to avoid any action that might possibly hurt someone, or even just go against their expectations of me.

I’ve avoided risks where I could fail and be criticized.

I am afraid of criticism.

Well screw that.

My name is Adam Decker. I am a college rebel. I have dropped out and have no intention of going back.

I am in an entrepreneurial apprenticeship program called Praxis. I am learning how to add value to companies I work with using an entrepreneurial mindset. I will be getting a paid apprenticeship at a startup through their network very soon.

I have studied several hundred hours learning about entrepreneurship and peak performance. My education comes from books, my mentors who have become successful, and the application projects I do.

I have spent this month  blogging every day (two posts have not been published, but they were written.) I’ve written about the books I read last fall, the Etsy store I made earlier this year, and the way I remember much of what I learn.

I’ll continue to write about things that matter to me. The rest of the books I haven’t reviewed yet, the projects I’d like to work on at some point. I’ll be posting them to Facebook.

I didn’t want to write that last sentence either. But I promised myself I would act when I saw myself holding back from doing something I needed to. So for the rest of the month, I imagine my Facebook feed will be busier that it’s even been. I hope I can entertain anyone who reads here and maybe even help a few friends with what I write.